The very first question I had after reading your letter is the one that she already asked you. So let me ask it again: ARE you embarrassed to be seen with her? Because, my man, you fucking SEEM to be.
What is with your shit of "thankfully no security guards or anything came?" What the fuck? Dude, I would have been LOOKING FOR a security guard! I would have stood right there and handed the loud-mouth bitch my cell phone to call the cops (or called them myself). I would have waited for the cops to show up and then ask my girlfriend for her ID. At which point, that stupid old cunt could've been made to look like a dumb bitch.
See, the problem here is that I think you actually DO have a guilty conscience over dating her. I think you really DO feel like some kind of perv, deep down inside, because you're attracted to this girl who looks 13. I can't say that I blame you. I imagine that if my wife looked like a 13yo girl, I'd probably feel a little shameful for wanting to fuck her too.
There's your first step. Admit that you DO feel some guilt over it. Admit that you sometimes feel a little like a sicko. But once you've admitted it, ask yourself this question: If my wife had to have her brain implanted into the body of a 13yo girl, would I be morally wrong for having sex with her in her 13yo body? Would I be morally wrong to still be attracted to her, knowing that it's HER and not an actual child, regardless of how she looks?
The answer is no. I would NOT be morally wrong to have sex with an emotionally and mentally mature person that I love. Physical appearance is irrelevant. That being said, I'd have to say that if I didn't at least feel a little creepy about it sometimes, then there's probably something wrong with me. It's a social stigma that exists for (mostly) good reasons. You SHOULD feel a little guilty! And your girlfriend should be GRATEFUL that she has a guy who is at least somewhat hesitant about appearing to be molesting a little girl!
Is this getting confusing? Here's a checklist. Print it out of you need to:
I accept that I feel a little guilty sometimes for fucking a girl who looks 13.
I accept that it's OK to feel this way and it just makes me a decent and moral human being
Having accepted this, I will now get the fuck over it.
A little confused by that last one? Let me clarify. Having accepted your feelings of guilt and realized that it's ok, you now need to move PAST those retarded fucking stupid emotions that you have and respond intellectually to the situation. No matter what your "feelings" tell you, you are not fucking a 13yo girl. You are NOT! With the feelings out of the way and the intellectual realization that even though you do feel this way sometimes, you can grasp it and control it. Your feelings are unimportant, you KNOW what the truth is and you should ACT based on what REALITY is, not on your very flawed emotional perception of it.
The next time you're accosted in public, YOU need to be the one acting all offended. YOU need to be the one yelling in somebody's face. YOU should be upset that somebody thinks you're molesting a child, because that isn't reality. Instead, you acted exactly like a guilty person would. You acted that way because you ARE a guilty person. You FEEL guilty and your feelings need to be brought in line with reality. The first step to that is acknowledging your emotions and then admitting that they're perfectly ok to have, just not perfectly ok to ACT upon.
Also, what a ungrateful bitch that girlfriend of yours sounds like. One guy actually LIKED how she looks and she dumps him? But you're a little guilty about it and she gives you shit for it? You tell that fucking whore that she can have it one way or the other, she doesn't get to fucking pick-and-choose which one she gets to be pissed about. She either wants a perv who will be all into her young looks, or she wants a normal dude who's gonna feel a little guilty about it. Like it or not, these are her choices. Her extremely youthful appearance is an abberation - an abnormality. If I were missing a limb, for example, I'd either choose to be with some freak who's turned on by that, or with a normal person who's gonna feel a little put-off by it but decide that I'm worth overlooking it. She is NEVER GOING TO FIND someone who is INDIFFERENT to it! FUCKING NEVER!!! So tell her to be grateful she has you and shut the fuck up and give you some angry goddamn sex!
Yes. Yes, I did call your girlfriend a bitch and a whore. I'm Lord Galen, suck it!
All My Hate,